Girl, when I tell you boudoir is transformative, I’m not just talking to talk. There are so many pressures that we deal with as women, and for so many of us, that has resulted in low self-esteem. When we don’t look like models, we write ourselves off as ugly and unworthy. It takes a long time to pull yourself out of that bleak self-hate, but no matter how bad it seems, self-love is possible. You can (and should) see yourself as the beautiful queen you are. Miss T struggled all of her life with how she looked, and she decided to do a boudoir session to help her grow to love herself. Read her thoughts on her experience below.
“From a childhood of constant taunting about my looks, from my big nose to my big lips, I grew up to be a very insecure woman regarding how I looked compared to other women. I was never really pretty in my eyes, so I rarely wore lipstick for fear of drawing attention to my lips. Now I realize I was a beauty before this world recognized what beauty actually is. Sadly, I fell prey to the limited belief and definition of beauty.
I was fearful that I would hate what my face would look like in photos, or that my facial expression would look weird. Now I also have this mom-pudge since having my daughters that I can’t seem to get rid of. Those thoughts that I wouldn’t look pretty or that I would look too fat in the photos were my primary hang-ups. I had wanted to do a shoot for years but kept wanting to wait until I had my weight under control before taking the plunge.
The decision to do the session came from the thought that I wasn’t getting any younger and I didn’t want to have any regret of not doing it when I was younger (i.e. my 40s). What better way to commemorate my 45 years on the earth by celebrating me with all my accomplishments and beauty that I never appreciated as a teen or younger woman?
[The boudoir session] was not what I expected at all… it was so much more. I definitely tried to come in with an open mind, however, my own personal insecurities immediately crept in. Going in, I kept thinking I didn’t meet my weight goal prior to the shoot, and I was worried about how that would come across in photos. But once I saw those pics, shiiiiid you couldn’t tell me nothing. I had forgotten how fiiinneee I am, even with the little extra weight. I AM BEAUTIFUL and realized I am THAT girl.
I decided that I can’t let those insecurities take over my mind. I have two teenage daughters and I decided I wouldn’t let my babies hear me say anything negative about my body anymore. I saw a different woman in those photos that I had never seen before, ever. She looks like a vixen, like the women I have seen so many times and questioned how they could be so confident. She is fierce and sexy! SHE is ME!”